Battle : The Early Years

All my life I have been an overweight person , I don't remember the day I felt pretty growing up and everyone will tell me you are so pretty but you would be beautiful if you would lose weight and be skinny , family members always comparing me with my cousins , my parents comparing me to my sisters etc . I guess that's the main reason I started going to church at a young age around 13 years old , seeking for a higher power that could do a miracle on me , obviously it didn't work like that , I stopped going to church at Age 20. I started hanging out with a punk crowd started partying , clubbing but I noticed my weight was always the problem no guys would notice a fat obese chick , I started counting calories , exercising after losing weight I started getting some confidence I. I believe I was 210 lbs at age 20 so I went down to 155 lbs I think that is the lowest I got and even though it isn't a low weight # , those years I felt good point is two years past by and I let myself go. Went back to the same fat obese ugly Liz a.k.a Free Willy .